why, Why, WHY?!?! ;o;

Last night I started feeling my throat get all weird....it's not a sore throat, more swollen then anything.

Then when I woke up this morning it got WORSE. If I try to talk it's all ok unless my tongue touches the soft part in the back on the roof of my mouth. It hurts tremendously to swallow.

My mom took me to the doc, and of course my doctor had to be off work today. So I had to see a nurse instead. She like didn't at all understand what I was saying...she was all like, "you may have strep" I freakin know how strep feels, and this is so not strep. & guess what that test came out negative....I kept telling her that it's not a SORE throat, it's just extremely swollen. But she kept acting as if it was just some sore throat...

what I find weird is that whenever my tongue touches the soft roof of my mouth it shoots up pain all the way up to my ear. I have a feeling that it has something to do with the glands in my neck....I told the nurse that, but I don't think she listened....She made me get a shot of some kinda steroids with benydril on my behind, she told me it should relive the pain almost immediately...guess what....no relief. D:

Its making me dread swallowing, because every time I do I get too much pain....I dunno, if it's not better tomorrow, then I'm gonna see if my mom will take me to a REAL doctor.

It sucks....right when I'm feeling great, something ALWAYS happens. I keep on crying by accident....I just hate always getting so sick....what kills me is that most people act like I'm just crazy or something...just because they've never gotten as sick as often as I do, they think that no one does...I just wish that people wouldn't act like that...it doesn't help me feel any better...I wish I wouldn't get sick all the time...I don't want to be sick, I hate it, yet people act like I'm faking it or something....I dunno...it's just somewhat upsetting that not many think that I'm actually sick...I just wish I could find a way to not get sick so often. D:

not to mention all this has made my fibro act up...so that's adding on alot more....

sorry bout posting all this crap...but I need it out someway.

My 18th

Wow....Tomorrow will be my 18th birthday. It feels weird that now I could be out on my own if I wanted, or needed be....I just still feel "too" young to be able to be out on my own. With my personality, there's no way I'll be able to ever live by myself...I just get too paranoid...

but ya...last years birthday really really sucked...I spent the whole time crying...I won't really go into detail...but found out that the boy I was with and kissing & whatnot had a girl friend....it broke me apart...and that was all a day or two around my bday last year...but hopefully it's all ok now...& I'll have a great bday...I hope...-__-

the only thing we have planned for my birthday is going to the planetarium, which I have wanted to go back to since I was like 6 or 7...

but ya...hope it'll all be a fun day...
Juria out~

An invasion of the Mudkip kind

That's right....those adorable little mudkips invaded my dreams last night. It seemed so.......real. O____O;;

but ya they were everywhere....& somehow my parents even knew what they were. lol.
Even politicians were using them on there "vote 4 me" signs...lol...I have bizarre dreams.

Setting Up

Yesterday I got a call to go help set up an arcade/anime shop opening up in my poor pathetic town. My town needs something like this! lol.
but ya, I'm going everyday this week to help set up, & once paint comes in, paint logos and other stuff on the windows. :3
Today we are gonna be setting up all the gaming computers! Let me tell you they got ALOT in. When I saw how many there were I was like.."whoa...O__O"
It's gonna be nice!
Plus the owner is going to let me sell my art there! I'm excited...I'll also get to cosplay while working XD

I'm just too excited about this, since our old arcade closed down there has been absolutely nothing here. DX
So this is a big deal here, I just hope it'll do well. I'm sure it will, I've told many & they are all ecstatic XD

above is one of the mascots I created for the shop. her name is Ran :3
visit their myspace: http://www.myspace.com/centerofparadise

Other news, my 18th Birthday is a WEEK from today, omg...I'm getting old. lololol...j/k, j/k...

Waterfalls!

So me and some of my friends went hiking around a waterfall today. It was so much fun! There's never anything to do in the small town I live in, so this was something totally different from the norm. So it was so nice, plus I love being outside. :)

Upon arriving I noticed above where we parked, that something quite bizarre was hanging from the powerlines...

lol....this made me laugh so hard...I mean...a PS2 controller?!?!? I've only ever only seen shoes...I guess this is the future rofl!

I also tried climbing a fallen tree...didn't get very far tho... P:

But ya, climbing all those rocks were fun, but they were slippery! Like I said it was beautiful, the air smelt really nice. I guess I appreciated it so much because I'm always stuck inside...everyone else is at work or school...I seriously need to get my drivers license *sweat*
They are planning on taking me again, I can't wait!

Well Juria out!~

OH MAH GAWD D8

I caught a freakin tough virus DDD8

it took us like ALL of yesterday to get rid of(actually even some of this morning too)...it kept hiding itself everywhere, so when we thought it was gone....it would comeback. T___T I think it's gone for good now...but I can't be for sure *crossesfingers*

It was one that disguised its self as an anti-virus program..."Windows Anti-Virus XP 2008" to be exact...I thought something was up when I first saw it pop up...cause one does tend to know what programs one has or doesn't.

And of course being the procrastinator I am, I had yet to back up ANY of my art....so once it looked virus free I quickly just backed up all my art & files I wouldn't want to loose. so I finally did it...>____>''

I think I might have gotten it from Facebook, cause one of my friends accounts got hacked & sent links to all their contacts....of course being an idiot, even tho I knew it was probably something that I should NOT press on I still did...
but I think thats where it may have come from....but I've been told I could have gotten it from a number of other things...so *shrugs* whatever...all I care is that it is OFF my computer.

I think I'll read up more on viruses and stuff that can kill computers...because I honestly know NOTHING about any of it.....I never really had to...since I've never gotten a serious one like this before....but ya...gonna do some research so hopefully I can prevent it from happening again DX
So if you guys have anything then please share >3<

*sighs* man....stressful night last night....X__X

I'm gonna visit my other sites really quick...just in case the virus isn't gone....>___<

Comic Idea I have...

I've been thinking about doing a comic in manga style....and the theme will be over 2012.
I've have gotten very interested in the whole Mayan prophesy and such. And after much reading on the topic an idea for a story started in my head.
I'm not gonna reveal too much of the plot...one so that if I actually make it then I won't have already told everyone the story, and two so that I can't get my idea stolen (that surely wouldn't happen right? >___>'')
But I will tell you guys that it will take place on the fateful day of 21 of December 2012. It will follow the main character as she travels to all of her favorite places, as she thinks about life itself...wondering if it really all is about to end. While also seeing alot of death from ones that would rather kill themselves then see the end of the world happen...
Thats all I'll put down...but does anyone think that it would make a decent comic?
I just am so interested in the subject, I think its kinda sad in a way that humankind has to find a reason to get all worked up over something that they aren't ever sure will even happen. Somewhat like Y2K when many killed themselves because they thought the world was going to end. I just found the mayan one unique though...considering the prophecy was made THOUSANDS of years ago! They even knew about the black hole in the center of the milky way, when we just now found out about it a few years ago....how the HELL did they know???

LOL...I'm sorta getting off topic...I guess this is what happens when I research stuff none of my friends are really interested in, I just ramble all your ears off....sorry bout that O___O''

But ya, I would love to hear feedback, or just random things you guys think about!

First Time...

Hello, anyone who reads this, this is my first post here and hopefully I'll keep up with it here!

I'll pretty much just be posting anything that's going on around me, ask for advise, rant, or just put something out there to think about!
So expect anything!

I'll probably keep updates about art and projects I'm working on. ^^

So I guess That's all for the moment!
Can't wait to get it up and running~

~Juria Datari